I know i am small, i am Asian, i am Chinese, i am born HERE and RAISED HERE, therefore i am small, midget and a fraction of my dream size. I cannot wear some brands and i cannot wear some cloths because i am small, because i am Asian.
But nevertheless i believe its not an issue, because i think big. . . . that’s what i would want my self to believe.
It came across me today that while i was in the meeting room convincing my client on some sanitary wares and also helping my non-architectural background boss with some design; as usual my receptionist would come in and serve some tea in the middle of the meeting, she gave two to my clients (husband & wife) and she left only to come back with one cup for my boss. [what about me?] i was left abrupt like that and until now. Tell me Whats wrong with this picture!?

and the basics- what’s wrong with her! So they didn’t have enough cups? -yea right there are 100 cups in the office, don’t tell me everyone used it all up (we only have 6 staffs)
owh, its all being washed- yea right they office woman isn’t in, so no one would wash it (we only have 6 staffs)
owh there isn’t enough tea left in the cup-yea right the whole jag could fill up 5 people full cup ( she could just have given me a cup of water!)
owh her hands were full- nope, just 2 hands and one cup. . . .
owh she thinks i need to take my own drink my self because i am only 22 and she is 35, and everyone else is 40+
this is just pure discrimination if i could say the least!
And beside if that’s the case! Mind you although i am young, and although i am a fresh grad, and though i am younger than her and anyone else in the office, i play a part in this office as a Designer! I seriously feel there needs to be a time where we as people start to look at things other than traditions, she is Chinese and she is the one that is about it, young must follow adults what-not. She cares so much about her son and his well being it reminds me of my mom and me. ( I dont talk to her, and i am not close to her either) I see her son being me: pity her, but owh well she didn’t see it coming and maybe she deserves it. (she was like, my son wont be like you want, he will be good, he will listen to me, and he will be a GOOD boy)
From what i could see, i have been patient with this woman. She has been trying to sort of change me- she thinks i am lost, and i need help to come back to the light, or to the virtues. I couldn’t count the numerous times she would come and nose about my life and my family asking why didn’t i talk to my family nor bother them in any way, and would use herself as an example to talk me into -talk to my family. [excuse me, do you know the situation with me, or my family or my life, and besides its my life. Whats the fuck is wrong with you!, i do what i want, i be what i want because its my life, my family is screwed up; we are this way for generations, and we are happy that way, WHO ARE you to mind my business, mind yours before you do others, and its not courteous being such nosy]
The tea issue that happened today is just a plain sight that its so obvious that she treat me less of what i am worth. I am offended by this and i furious. I am not emotional, its just plain wrong to be serving everyone but that one last one, like the 13th fairy.
Treat others the way you would want to be treated. If this is the case, i am not going to treat you as you would want me to treat you. I am not going to be nice like an ignorant fool that passes and goes to work just for a work. I have a dignity and i believe i have kept it quite well. If so you believe that your dignity is about so high as mine or better, therefore that is not high, because you compare.
I may have felt the way i do now because i was agitated, but its something you could feel. I may not have grasp this entirely but i feel its just wrong to treat people this way. Because i am young, i need to take my own tea in the middle of the meeting?
I simple feel that its shallow of her to think of it that way, and to resent me.
Traditional people can be the devil in disguise, they are now the people i would kill first in the time of end to come. They disturb the living and they disturb people. You would be shunned that at this time and age, we still have little people like this, and these little minds that makes our world turn a little slower because we have to bother them. . . .
simple pathetic, just pathetic.

Word of advice:
Dear readers of ages that is of teens or of early adults
I hope i wouldn’t be to rude to say this, but as youths i believe it is our rights to take charge of our own life, it should be decided by our own and only our own, simply because it’s your life and you are to live in it, not your mom, not your dad, not your grandma, grandpa, your aunt, your uncle; NO its YOU.
Listening to them is fine, but please do not let them take charge. Yes its true that they are our sole financier, and they pay for everything. Bare this in mind: from the moment we are conceived, and brought into this world, we are DIRECTLY their responsibility. It is their responsibility to raised us and to bring us up to adults. It is their job. But with that responsibility, it does not mean that by raising us, it would mean we are responsible for theirs. Its entirely a wrong concept to think that you are responsible for them later in life, when they are responsible for you. Remember its their responsibility to raise you, but its your choice to take your responsibility. Its just a choice. A choice they have to be relevant when your young to be able to attract you to take responsibility for them. They cannot demand as how you demanded, because your their responsibility, you are their job. When its done, its done.
I have felt that its also naive of us youngsters to listen to them entirely. I question and i ask everything they say. It cannot be: what i say is right and you must listen. With today’s knowledge and the accessibility that is available, there is no reason why we could not question, always demand an explanation. If they couldn’t answer it is therefore nul. If it doesn’t make sense why pursue it. At this time and age, i believe we should not be quite, we need to question and reason the many happenings around us. We have come so far as humanity but it still seems we are just a mile away from where we started. We have a long way to go, and by listening to parents who think and live the lives decades ago isn’t going to help us move into the future.
They have the right to enforce, but with a proper reason. Remember to practice your rights, as humans we have our human rights even as a baby. An explanation and a reason to any doings is necessary. Its not about authority. Control is agreement. If things are not met, or agreed there could not be a veto, it needs to be met in the middle somehow.
Youngsters and especially Asian youths must move out of this trap that makes us Asians. There is no reason why we cannot be more than who we are. The excuse that we are Asians and we have virtues and traditions to uphold is just crap. Its an excuse because your afraid. Traditions are pass on, but the change to suit to the relevance. whatever we practice today may not be the same thing our ancestor’s practice centuries ago. We need to move out of this cocoon that traps us, and we start with our parents. They are the ones responsible for bring us up, but if you don’t take the chance to be more than they are, than your just a clone.
You don’t move anywhere. We need to empower ourselves. Do it by being bold, and being brave.
Parents will be hurt, so? everyone does
They will deal with it, as how they have dealt with a lot of people
soon they will realize that, that’s their job, it’s their job. Your living.
Love and respect is earn, the Asian values of strict enforcement is nor love, its torture and to me its against human rights on any level.
Remember, it’s your life, your living it, your dealing with it, and your going to be at it for the rest of your life.
It’s either you like it or you don’t, if your parents wants you to do and you don’t like it, just remember this. Your gonna be living it for the rest of your life and you would be a monster like them to your children because your a product of their failure.
People: its time to break out of this cocoon, the knives are in our hands: all we need to do is just cut that layer of silk and break free, spreading our winds and fly in the infinite sky. . .
Take charge now. This is not the time to pessimistic, this is not the time to be scared. We are falling off a Cliff right now, it doesn’t make any difference if you stab your self with a knife. . . .
~Derick Doors~